"I like cherry blossoms too, they flourish for a short time but are splendid and in a certain sense represent the fragility and the transience of life. For a moment, the picture in which you are walking and the trees, reminded me of my grandmother when as a child we were walking under the mimosas in bloom. At the end everything changes in life, from situations to people. Sometimes changes can be faster or slower, and sometimes they do not depend on us. I like your post and then it is as if you are walking in an avenue of memories."
I received this comment one of my most recent blog posts When Blossoms Bloom. At first glance I was thinking, wow this a really nice, reflective response filled with so much nostalgic energy. But it wasn't until after rereading it again later on, more closely, I realized what the message in it really was. The idea of it was exactly what fueled me to get into writing my blog, because it had the energy I wanted my readers to feel.
The transience of life is something that I've been thinking about more and mores the idea of time. Just that feeling of getting older and realizing that time can be healing or damaging, or feel fast or slow, but you can never get time back. When you finally get to that age that you were always wishing to be as a child, begging to be even, and you realize that life isn't exactly an easy thing to handle. And sometimes there are days when you wake up and miss the feeling of waking up feeling carefree on Saturdays and no worries on your mind. Looking back 20 years feels almost like yesterday, but then when you actually look around you realize that you're a totally different person that has been tested, shaped and refined by life.
Life really is fragile in a sense, because nothing in this life is permanent. Every day I'm thinking of how I just want to go back to the 90s when all I cared about was Sunday night Skate 22, Rugrats movies, Pinho's cupcakes and riding around in my mom's old Ford Explorer in Roselle. And how I miss polaroid cameras and listening to Jon B. and Joe playing on the radio. I mostly miss how on those long rides to Cranford or Paramus, I used to always look out the window and watch the scenery and the trees flash by, just fast enough for my eyes to just catch the trees in their essence and their beauty. And now when I daydream I'm looking back, chasing this feeling of how can I get that feeling back? All thats left are the blurred memories.
I'm grateful for this message. I wanted my readers and everyone to read this and always remember that we should never take anything in life for granted, because things can change at any moment. The quote ended on the idea of this avenue of memories, and I love this, because I feel like at the end of the day thats all we're left with. Memories of a time, of a song, of a feeling, of people. Whether we admit it or not, we're all constantly longing for what used to be, but I guess to me that's what reminiscing really is.
Thank you for this comment and to everyone whose been here reminiscing with me, and encouraging me.